when you don't get the job you thought you'd get. Rick didn't get the Target job. He was told he wouldn't make it at a large company (talk about a slap in the face). So, he has been pretty down and out. He started advertising our business R&GVisions(computer consulting, etc) in the local paper and has had a few responses, which is good. I keep telling him not to worry that God has the perfect job for him, he just has to be patient about it. Looking for a good paying job in this market is tough.

I have so much to say on what has been going on in my life, that one entry isn't going to be enough, so I'll try to write more tomorrow about this Christian conference I went to a couple of weekends ago.

G

Greetings -

Well, Rick will have his second set of interviews sometime next week with Target. He is hoping and praying this will be what God wants him to do. It seems that in all our lives we are changing as well as things and people around us. Nothing is ever constant....except God's love for us. That never changes, even when we mess up, He still loves us. Please keep Rick in your prayers as he is preparing for these interviews for next week....he has 4 interview with different people.

I am looking forward to a conference I am attending this weekend. I hope I get something out of it. I will let you know how it went sometime. Till than, it is time to go..

G

Greetings All -

As I look at today and everyday in fact, I give thanks to Jesus Christ for being in my life and being there for me at every turn. I'm fortunate to have Him in my life. As I write this some people may look at my situation and ask why am I not having a nervous breakdown. You see, my parents are going through a rough time; my husband is out of work; helping my son with homework; working fulltime outside the home; handling a supervisor ,who is great at supervising, who is leaving the company for another job; handling issues with my biological mother; plus we have had a car issue and paid around $700 to get it fixed. Yes, I do have a number of things on my mind and happening around me...but I'm at peace with everything. I just realized this yesterday talking with my husband. I don't feel stressed out. I know God is in control. Rick even agreed to have a small group Bible study at our house (shocking, believe me..I've been trying to have one for years) and he has even asked me to pray for him when he has had interviews. In fact with everything going on, it has just brought me closser to my Creator. He never gives us more than we can handle. Even though I'm a Christian I still have great difficulties but having Jesus in my life makes those difficulties seem not so bad. It could be worse...not having Jesus in my life.

Have a great Day. God Bless!

G

Well, I appreciate the input I received from my last posting. However things have changed since that posting. You see.....this person is still sinning and has not turned away from this sin (non-repenting). How could I possibly forgive someone when they don't care what they are doing. I personally believe that when you are a Christian and have sinned, you need to repent and ask Christ for forgiveness (at least do that). I believe unrepented sin does not go unpunished. Christ expects us to repent when we have sinned to be forgiven. This situation that this person is in needs a lot of prayer. It will not be something I get over easily. I know at somepoint in time I will be able to forgive this person in my family, but the time isn't now...there is too much hurt and pain. I know Jesus can fix things, but this person doesn't seem willing to do his part in trying to fix the mess he has created. I really don't know how someone can go to church every Sunday and proclaim to love God while he doesn't live the Christian life.  Sorry for all the ranting.....I just have to get it out through writing since speaking to this person twice hasn't gotten anywhere.  I think I will try more and more prayer!!!

Later......

G

Greetings All -

Have you ever wondered why God allows certain things to happen? I do until I realize He is in control. For example: I really wanted that ESL job in my son's school district, even though it would only have been PT and no bens. I didn't get the job because God knew before I did that life would throw me a curve ball. Rick, after I found out I didn't get the job, was demoted from his manager position without cause other than his boss doesn't like his difference of opinion and Rick isn't a "yes" man to evrything he says. Anyway God knew that our financial and healthcare would be in jepordy if I got this job, so it didn't happen. Rick is looking for a new job since it is extremely difficult for him to work for his boss(Rick says he is the devil himself).

Also, why do people hurt people that they say they care about? I mean, how can you say you love and care for someone and than turn around and stab them in the heart? It really hurst when you have been mislead and lied to for 2 years. It seems to me to be rather selfish to know you have done somthing to hurt your family but yet it doesn't bother this family member at all. It doesn't matter who this person has hurt in my family as long as he/she is happy. I really don't know how people who love their family can turn their back and do something so selfish and ungodly. It's like I had blinders on before all this happend and now the blinders are off and I see what this person is really like - so very selfish. It hurts. I thought this family member had integrity and knew right from wrong.

I know we all sin because we are humans. The point is when we do sin or someone points out our sin, we need to take a good look at ourselves and repent of that sin and say sorry to people that we have hurt with it (if we have hurt anyone). When we don't repent of sin, we grow distant from God and we let the enemy take hold of our life and heart.

I've tried two times to talk to this family member about how he/she has hurt people, but all I get is a blank stare, no repetance, no I'm sorry I hurt this person, that person, you....nothing! It's like I'm talking to a wall. I would like to forgive this person but I feel this person needs to repent to Jesus and turn away from their sin, but I have people, who are Christians tell me I need to forgive no matter what. I'm still upset with what has happened. I don't know what to do right now. I think it is best to wait for God's voice on the issue.

Anyway enough rambling.  Must get back to work. A busy day after the long holiday weekend.

God Bless!

G